Sometimes It's Hard to Feel Merry. #Repost #miscarriagesupport #griefduringholidaysby Ellen DuBois on 12/08/17
I get it. I remember how tough the Christmas following my miscarriage was. All I could think about was the baby I lost. I was consumed with thoughts like:
It's hard to feel merry. It feels like the world is celebrating and I'm stuck on pause.
This should be our first Christmas together.
How can I feel happy when inside I'm so sad?
Nothing feels right. The whole world feels different.
When will I feel like me again?
I feel like I'm going to lose it.
How can I be around all these people when inside I feel like I'm screaming?
Doesn't anyone understand that I'm grieving?
I know what it's like and I can tell you that although you will never forget your baby, things will get easier for you in time. If your wounds are very raw right now, please know that your best is good enough. Just take everything one day at a time and if you need to "step away", you can.
Pray for strength. Pray for comfort. Ask the angels to surround you this Christmas and give you some peace. Take some deep breaths. What others may think about your loss really doesn't matter. You have every right to feel and in time you will heal.
Christmas was tough for me for a long time. Even now, when my baby would have been a 25 year old, I think of him, particularly on Christmas. I have an ornament hanging on the tree with his name on it. No, I will never forget my baby and I certainly don't expect you will. I hope you find some comfort in feeling your little one's spirit near you.
On the flip side, if you do find yourself smiling, or a feeling of peace and happiness surfaces, please allow yourself to feel that, too. It's a gift and even while you're grieving, you can still feel joy. As Dr. Wayne Dyer once said, "You can grieve and live at the same time." (That has stuck with me, especially since the loss of my mother.)
"Sometimes it's hard to feel merry. It feels like the world is celebrating and I'm stuck on pause. That's what grief does."- Ellen M. DuBois
My heart goes out to all who are grieving this Christmas and holiday season. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love and comfort to you,
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