Repost: A Letter to My Baby In Heaven #miscarriage #pregnancyloss #miscarriagesupport
by Ellen M. DuBois on 11/05/19
Dear Baby of Mine,
I think about you so often. I decided to write you a letter. Something tells me you already know what I'm writing to you.
I loved you since the moment I knew you. I never felt a love so strong or so deep. It's unlike any other kind of love I experienced.
Knowing you were growing inside of me made me feel a connection to you that words can't describe. I remember patting my belly gently, talking to you and sometimes, I'd smile just knowing you were there, safe and sound.
I had so many wishes, hopes and dreams for you. I was so excited to see you for the very first time and hold you in my arms.
Well, one day, all of that went away. You had to go back to Heaven and I bet it's because you were too good for this earth. I've heard that expression before and something tells me it's true. I've also heard about soul lessons, and I think you came into my life to teach me about mine.
I'll never know what God's full plan is for me, but I know you coming into my life was part of it. I also know you leaving was another part of it...but, it hurt unlike anything I've felt or ever will.
You taught me so much, like how much stronger I was than I thought. You taught me that love transcends everything, even death. You taught me how precious life is and to treasure every moment because it can change in an instant. You taught me that even though we are not together here, we are always connected- it's REAL. You taught me that my feelings should be expressed, not held in. You taught me that tears help to heal wounds and holding them in isn't good for me. You taught me how to take my pain and turn it around to help others. You taught me that everything is not in my control and how important it is to have faith in God for support. There were times I didn't know how I'd get through the day, and faith carried me. God carried me. The angels helped me and I bet you did, too.
I pictured Jesus holding you in his arms so many times. That comforted me while my arms ached to hold you.
I know it's been a long time since I lost you, but I have never, ever stopped loving you.
You taught me that whether in Heaven or on earth, I will always be your mother.
Thank you for teaching me so many things and for every other way you touched my life and heart.
I Will Love You Forever,
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My book, I Never Held You, is mentioned in this column. More importantly, it addresses how difficult anniversary dates can be: