Anniversary Dates Bring On Griefby Ellen M. DuBois on 07/12/19
While it's been years since I miscarried, each April I think about the baby I lost. I remember the day, the spectrum of feelings, the numbness as I left the hospital, feelings of detachment, the tears that made me double over- all of it. I think it's become part of my DNA, my soul. The reality of what I went through comes flowing back in waves. I've given up trying to explain it or figure it out. It's painfully simple: I loved my baby and suffered a great loss when I miscarried. When the anniversary date rolls around, my senses are heightened. I tend to cry more over things like TV commercials and songs. I'm moodier, weepier...and I believe all this is normal. At least it's my normal and quite possibly yours, too.
I've learned to go with it and feel whatever comes to the surface because it's a part of my life experience- a painful one.
Welcome to MiscarriageHelp.com. My name is Ellen DuBois, host of this site, miscarriage survivor, and author of I Never Held You: Miscarriage, Grief, Healing and Recovery. If you or someone you love has suffered a miscarriage, please know you're not alone. Connect with people who understand.
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