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The Dismissal of Our Very Real Grief #miscarriage #grief

by Ellen DuBois on 08/16/17



"We have all felt the dismissal of our very real grief, and we have all felt alone and isolated because of it."- Ellen DuBois, I Never Held You

"There are so many of us on different paths. We are professionals in the workforce or professional mothers. We are painters and singers. We are caretakers, and we are movie stars. Some of us may have children, while some of us don't. My point is that we all have our own lives, and our diversity is wonderful. The one thing that connects us all is that we are women who experienced a terrible loss that seemed, in many cases, to go unacknowledged by many. We have all felt the dismissal of our very real grief, and we have all felt alone and isolated because of it. We have all wondered what 'might have been' and we have all been caught off guard by powerful emotions resurfacing."- Ellen DuBois from I Never Held You

Welcome to MiscarriageHelp.com. My name is Ellen DuBois, host of this site, miscarriage survivor, and author of I Never Held You: Miscarriage, Grief, Healing and Recovery. If you or someone you love has suffered a miscarriage, please know you're not alone. Connect with people who understand.

Note: Please feel free to leave a comment here. If it's easier, please email me. ellen@miscarriagehelp.com
Love & comfort to you, Ellen

#grief  #miscarriagesupport #miscarriage

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Miscarriage and Blame. #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagehelp

by Ellen DuBois on 08/16/17



"Acknowledge your pain. Feel it. But please stop blaming yourself, God or anyone else."- Ellen DuBois, I Never Held You

I know after living through a miscarriage and blaming myself, God and anyone else I could think of that I wasn't helping myself. I was hurting myself. I also know it's very easy to wonder if you did anything wrong.

I get how it feels to retrace your footsteps and try to pinpoint the one thing you did that caused such a painful loss. When I couldn't find blame within myself, I questioned God. Why would my happiness be stolen from me? What did I do? Why me? So, if that's where you're at, I really do understand where you're coming from. But, take it from one who has lived it and finally came to a place where I stopped blaming myself: It wasn't your fault and hurting yourself over and over again in an attempt to find an answer just hurts you.

I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I'll be sharing quotes from my book on future posts and I hope you find them helpful. Love and Light, Ellen


 

Welcome to MiscarriageHelp.com. My name is Ellen DuBois, host of this site, miscarriage survivor, and author of I Never Held You: Miscarriage, Grief, Healing and Recovery. If you or someone you love has suffered a miscarriage, please know you're not alone. Connect with people who understand.

Note: Please feel free to leave a comment here. If it's easier, please email me. ellen@miscarriagehelp.com
Love & comfort to you, Ellen

#grief  #miscarriagesupport #miscarriage

The MiscarriageHelp.com Daily- paper.li- by Ellen DuBois. Updated daily with a curated selection of articles, blog posts, videos and photos. Click here. Miscarriage Support- Because Your Loss Matters.

#Miscarriage: I'll Never Forget You #Repost #Support

by Ellen DuBois on 08/08/17



So many years have gone by since my miscarriage. They've been years filled with the highs and lows of life. Sometimes, I've been pushed to the limit, like when my mother passed away. I got to a point where I wondered how much I could take. But, the human spirit is amazing. Faith is astounding. I know I've been carried though some of my darkest, saddest times by my faith.

There were days my faith in God, the angels, etc., was the only thing casting light upon what seemed a dark, desolate road. 

I felt very alone after my miscarriage. You may, too. Over time, I grew into my "new normal", learning to adjust to a life that for some time, felt like an uncomfortable shoe.

What I can tell you is this: Life went on after my miscarriage and more recently, after the loss of my mother. While I'm still struggling with the pain of losing my mom, the pain of losing my sweet baby to miscarriage is not nearly as raw as it used to be. That's only because of time. We are all different. We grieve, heal and feel in our own ways. But, I never forgot my baby. That would be impossible. I'll always love my child. That will be forever.

If you're stuck in the depths of grieving your little one, I am so sorry for your loss. I want you to know you'll feel more like yourself one day. I can't tell you when, but it will happen. Please don't place a time frame on your grief and healing. Hang on to your faith and believe you'll feel relief one day- when it's right for you. Allow yourself to feel what you must and if anyone dismisses your loss, you don't have to listen to them. It's sad, but it happens.

You're going to be okay. You will get through this. And, like me, you'll probably always feel a very deep love for the baby you never held but always loved.

You have every right to.

Love and Light,

Ellen

Welcome to MiscarriageHelp.com. My name is Ellen DuBois, host of this site, miscarriage survivor, and author of I Never Held You: Miscarriage, Grief, Healing and Recovery. If you or someone you love has suffered a miscarriage, please know you're not alone. Connect with people who understand.

Note: Some people find it difficult to post comments here because it's not very clear how to do it. Just hit the "comment" link under any post. I'll get your comment and respond. If it's easier, please email me. ellen@miscarriagehelp.com
Love & comfort to you, Ellen

The MiscarriageHelp.com Daily- paper.li- by Ellen DuBois. Updated daily with a curated selection of articles, blog posts, videos and photos. Click here. Miscarriage Support- Because Your Loss Matters.



Miscarriage Help. Eleven Years of Sharing and Caring. #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport

by Ellen DuBois on 08/01/17



Hello Everyone,

It's hard to believe MiscarriageHelp.com has been online since 2006. Wow. Eleven years.

The past eleven years have been filled with tears, support, empathy, growing and understanding.  A sisterhood of women who've shared the pain of miscarriage has formed and grown in a way only the Internet can provide because of its reach. 

I never dreamed back when this site began that it would grow so exponentially.

I've been honored and am still honored to provide this platform for women, (men, too), to share their feelings after miscarriage. Often times, we feel supported simply by reading the comments made by others. Many times, you feel better by sharing what's been on your mind and heart with others. The act of "letting it out" goes a long way towards helping you heal.

Small steps. One day at a time.

How we grieve and what we experience after miscarriage is as different as we are. Yet, living through such a painful loss connects us. This connection, although we wish we never had to share it, gives us a certain comfort and reassurance. It speaks to your heart saying "You're not alone in this." Believe me, you are not.

That's the reason MiscarriageHelp.com exists and will continue to exist. That's the reason I wrote my book, too. But, there's another reason. I believe writing about my own experience after miscarriage helped me heal. I didn't know it at the time. It was a process. All these years later I see clearly how writing about my own pain, what helped and what didn't was in fact a form of therapy for me. Eleven years later, I could probably write from an additional perspective- one with eleven more years of growing and learning, sharing and caring.

I want to share some of the comments made here at MiscarriageHelp.com over the past eleven years. Some date as far back as 2006. As I type this, I feel butterflies in my stomach and a deep feeling of gratitude. I am so thankful for having this site up so I could reach out. I am grateful to each and every one of you who has commented, shared your support or simply stopped by to read the comments here. We have all reached out to each other and to countless others.

To all of you who have experienced the pain of miscarriage, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you always.

Let's begin this journey by going back to one of the earliest comments made on this site. I think many of you will be able to relate to these feelings- to this woman's heart and life after miscarriage:

To Ellen:

Hello and thank you once again for your comforting words and your call for prayer.

I seem to be a bit stuck right now. There is so much going on that I cannot focus my mind on any one thing long enough to deal with it all. I cry for the children I have lost, only to cry for the physical pain that I feel, only to cry in thankfulness for the saving of my life, only to cry for all of the what ifs....My emotions are scattered all over the map and occasionally when they meet in the middle, it is very overwhelming. My emotions can spin on a dime from gratefulness, to anger, to sadness, to disbelief. You name it and it is at the surface ready to jump right out. I cannot put one thing on hold to tend to the other and all of them together is truly getting to be too much. I am tired and impatient, weak and sad, all at the same time. I want to be strong and loving, happy and thankful. I know those emotions are inside, but I feel overpowered by all that has happened. I know brighter days are ahead but it is too cloudy right now to see the sun.

I have an appointment in the morning for a post-op check with my OBGYN. I am going to ask him for referrals so I can talk this all out with a professional. You would think that after surviving something that could have killed me, I would be happy and thankful. Yet, at the same time I am sad and angry. You would think that I would be a loving and kind mother and wife. Yet, at the same time I feel myself being very quick to anger and impatient. You would think that I could find solice in the fact that although I wish the two children I have lost were with me, they are with a loving God. Yet, at the same time I feel empty and have such a longing, it feels like I am being slowly and painfully torn to pieces inside.

Before February 6, I felt invinsible. I was carefree and happy and on top of the world. Now I feel like I've been kicked to the ground with the wind knocked out of me.

I know that I am going to be okay, but I can't find the strength to get back up on my own. People are trying to come and help me get back up, but I am lashing out and pushing them away. I am doubled over in pain and sadness trying to catch my breath and I can't find the strength to stand again. I really do need to talk to someone so that I can find the strength to stand under my own power and have those around me to lean on for support. They are there for me when I need them and I appreciate that so very much. What I don't want to find is that one day I find the strength to stand and I am standing alone. I love and need those that are most dear in my life but I need the healing to begin with me. Thank you again-"R"

Dear "R"

I'm sorry for what you're going through, and I know what's like to have a hard time focusing because your mind is on overload. You DO have so many emotions running rampant, and some stable ground would be appreciated by you- mind, body and spirit.

I support you 100% in your asking your OBGYN for a referral. It sounds like you need somebody to talk to who can help guide you through all of your emotions fighting against each other. (Which, I think is perfectly normal given what you're living...I was the SAME way).

Because you're dealing with so much grief, pain, longing, ache, angst...of course you are going to be a bit snappy. Please don't beat yourself up for that. You have suffered a loss, are grieving, and there is no room for guilt in this picture. You can only do the best you can...and it sounds to me like you are trying with everything you've got. However, if you feel anything like I did, (and still do in certain circumstances), you KNOW there's a better day coming, and your faith keeps that thought alive, yet you find yourself feeling like you're treading water and need somebody to throw you a lifejacket.

Your lifejacket IS there, and with some help, you'll be able to sift through the rubble and find it.

Those who love you, R, LOVE you because you're you. They understand you are in pain, and if at times you push them away I am sure they know why. Yes, it probably hurts them...moreso because they realize you feel so alone right now and they cannot break through the barrier of pain which is surrounding you. It's like a heavy cloak you want OFF.

Time...God...Help...Faith...Your Beautiful Strength...WILL get you through this, these darkest of days. Cling to that with all you are. I believe in you, and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

"How do you eat an elephant?" My dear friend's husband used to ask. "One bite at a time."

With Loving Thoughts, Care, and HOPE,

Ellen


Welcome to MiscarriageHelp.com. My name is Ellen DuBois, host of this site, miscarriage survivor, and author of I Never Held You: Miscarriage, Grief, Healing and Recovery. If you or someone you love has suffered a miscarriage, please know you're not alone. Connect with people who understand.

Note: Some people find it difficult to post comments here because it's not very clear how to do it. Just hit the "comment" link under any post. I'll get your comment and respond. If it's easier, please email me. ellen@miscarriagehelp.com
Love & comfort to you, Ellen

The MiscarriageHelp.com Daily- paper.li- by Ellen DuBois. Updated daily with a curated selection of articles, blog posts, videos and photos. Click here. Miscarriage Support- Because Your Loss Matters.



#Miscarriage: The Benefits of Finding Some Headspace

by Ellen DuBois on 07/21/17



Hello everyone,

As someone who has lived through the aftermath of miscarriage, I know how your mind can get overloaded with emotions, thoughts running wild and a general feeling of sadness. I also know how difficult it can be to simply quiet your mind and self so you feel calmer and can breathe easier.

In my book I mention the benefits of meditation. I still adhere to that belief, but want to share with you a program you can use from your phone or computer called Headspace. God, I wish this was around back when I lost my little one to miscarriage. Back when my anxiety and panic were crippling. However, what's important is it's here now and it's amazing.

I don't work for Headspace. I'm not trying to sell you anything. I don't get a commission if you sign up for Headspace. What I get is the possibility of helping YOU, and that's what matters.

I discovered Headspace and tried it using my phone. For ten days I did a short, (three minutes) session. All I did was sit and listen. I focused on my breathing and more. Before I knew it, the few minutes I spent doing this were over. BUT, I felt better. So, I did it the next day, and the next and so on for ten days. Then, it was time to sign up. (I also love the voice of the man who speaks during the sessions.)

It's hard to believe how amazingly powerful a few minutes of Headspace is in calming me, soothing my mind, and putting me in a better, more aware place. I just did another session today on anxiety- something I've lived with for 25 years (or so). My anxiety went hand in hand with the grief after losing my baby to miscarriage. It also was heightened when I lost the sight in my left eye in college. It crept into my life in a big way when my mother passed away 2 and a half years ago.

Anyway, every day you get a reminder on your phone that it's time for some Headspace. You simply sit down, take a few minutes for you, (again, it's nice and short so it's easy to find time), and when you're done, I believe you'll feel a difference for the better. If anything at all, you'll feel calmer, more at ease, better able to go through your day. When you do this day after day, I believe the emotional and physical benefits are cumulative. I say this as a woman who has lived through miscarriage and needs some overall "calming time" in her life, not as a doctor. I'm not one.

I love the program and app called Headspace. I'm sharing this with you because whenever I find anything I think will help you, I want you to know about it. The choice is yours and I get that. Some things work for some. We gravitate towards different things.

If this sounds like something that'll help you, please check out their website at http://headspace.com or download their app called Headspace. The first ten days are free. If you want to continue, you sign up and pay by the month or by the year.

Again, I don't work for them. I am not getting paid anything for sharing this with you. What I'm doing is sharing something with you that's been wonderful for me.

I now crave my Headspace. I love how it settles me down, makes me more aware, calms and refreshes me- mind, body and spirit.

Love and Light to you and I'm deeply sorry for your loss.


 

Welcome to MiscarriageHelp.com. My name is Ellen DuBois, host of this site, miscarriage survivor, and author of I Never Held You: Miscarriage, Grief, Healing and Recovery. If you or someone you love has suffered a miscarriage, please know you're not alone. Connect with people who understand.

Note: Please feel free to leave a comment here. If it's easier, please email me. ellen@miscarriagehelp.com
Love & comfort to you, Ellen

#grief  #miscarriagesupport #miscarriage

The MiscarriageHelp.com Daily- paper.li- by Ellen DuBois. Updated daily with a curated selection of articles, blog posts, videos and photos. Click here. Miscarriage Support- Because Your Loss Matters.

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